Calm

Its a funny thing to be calm, not constantly looking for the next thing. For the first time in my life, that I can remember I am not thinking 'we can do this, after we finish that' My parents always called spinny and I can still her my Grandma saying "Settle down, Corinna" I've never felt settled. Maybe it's an adoption thing, maybe I have ADD, maybe I'm a Third Culture Kid wannbe, but calm and quiet and settled I am not. My life has always been dictated by, "when I am done highschool" "when I finish nursing school" "when I get a job" "when I move out on my own" "when the baby is born" "when JC gets a job" "when JC finishes law school", I'll be more settled.

It's happened, I am settled. Even with our pending move and moves, and job changes etc... I am so calm. I am NOT looking forward or backward, I am just seeing what's here and now. I really am enjoying it. Everyday just is. I feel like for the first time, I can breathe. I am not constantly thinking about what's going to happen, what I am going to do once this thing does happen. I am living presently. It is so freeing.

I am so proud of my Dhaka J, working so hard at learning Bangla. He is amazingly dedicated to doing the best job he can. I have always know J is driven, but seeing him in job that means so much to him, makes me so happy. I love seeing him working towards this goal. I love that the Foreign Service is our life now, and that J has a fulfilling career. He is awesome.

What's happening lately, R and J Dhaka, went camping in last weekend. It had been so cold the night before they left, I was nervous for them, but it turn out to be a very warm evening and they had a lovely time. That left the B and me, home alone. We had a nice time playing at the park with friends E & O. Then we went for dinner with them as well. The next day, he and I went to the American History museum, where B refused to see the exhibit on the first ladies dresses. I tried to drag him (literally) through it, but he planted his feet and said NO WAY, that's for girls! Many people watching us, got a kick out of it for sure. I got to see Julia Childs Kitchen, which was awesome. B had fun playing in the kids areas. Of course we hit the gift shop on the way out. OHHH shiny! I got a book on the Great American Citizenship Test. My study guide to becoming American. (I finally finished the application, now I just have to mail it in, sometime before the raise the cost again.)